the long long week….

Saturday morning 4am, I was awaken to pain. Not just any pain but a sharp deep pain from within my stomach. I got up and went into the bathroom, trying to figure out what this pain could possibly be, my first thought was ‘great, my appendix is going to rupture, so maybe I should call 911″ then after a couple minutes i thought “well maybe i am over-reacting and it’s nothing” but how could this be nothing, the pain was not getting better and obviously we don’t feel pain for no reason. so I figured, ok i’ll wait it out and see what happens. An hour passes and it’s nt getting any better, at this moment I am lying on the floor in the hall and thinking ok, I’m just gonna call my parents and ask them to take me to the hospital. I make my way to the bed and pick up my phone and push the button to call home. “hello” a tired voice says “hey mom, umm i think i need you to take me to the hospital”…that’s how my week started (or ended, idk) anyways I went to the ER and after waiting and tests and unbelievable pain. (I’m leaving out the details, sorry). The doctor came back and said “you have a kidney stone”…my response to that “sweet”…in a sarcastic tone (by this time the 3 doses of morphine were finally starting to kick in). So with that I went home…oh wait first went to the pharmacy to fill my prescriptions where I could barely walk down the aisles so I went back and sat in the car and waited for my mom and I cried, cried like I haven’t cried in a LONG time, I have never been in so much pain and felt so helpless.

After my little “outing” to the hospital and the pharmacy I went home and slept a lot, the first 3 days were terrible I woke up one morning and was in pain (even with meds) from 2:30am-9:00am. I didn’t know how to make the pain better, nothing I did mattered, I couldn’t stand, sit, lay down anything. At one point I was so tired, I fell asleep on the bathroom floor, was tired of the pain and tired of walking back and forth between the bedroom and bathroom so i just passed out there. (good thing I know my bathroom is unbelievably clean)…so not only was i dealing with the pain in my side but also not drinking caffeine, so was experiencing a withdrawal headache (which lasted 3 days).

After all that,  I’m still trying to recover, get my strength back, but in all I did find that I have some AMAZING people in my life, people, who check in on me and who will bring me movies, or food (not that I was able to eat food, but they offered), and anything else I needed to make my miserable experience more comfortable. I had so many people praying and writing me messages online or through text. To everyone, I appreciate you all and I thank God He, has blessed me with you. You  are all incredible. THANKS.